The GPB Curse

'Gross Pointe Blank' is probably the reason I didn't go to my high school reunion.

I stayed up last night watching it again - it's one of my favourite movies. The fact is that a lot of people, I believe, want to be Martin Blank. They want to have lived dangerously, been damaged and have a chance to return home, push the reset button and correct those post-high school mistakes.

My problem was that my life wasn't as dark and mysterious as Martin's. And that I didn't have a great love in high school to try and reset things with. And I had actually had a pretty normal life, in a way, after high school.

And for someone who WANTED to be different, to be dark and myseterious but didn't have the chutzpah to do so, it is pretty disappointing. And of course to not be one ounce as cool as John Cusack.

If I'd gone back to my reunion a year ago I can imagine that after the first few minutes of 'and what did you do after high school' it would have been pretty quiet. I didn't speak to any of these people after school ended...so how do you do that now? I've always had a problem with chit-chat. And to be honest I am not very convinced that I am that nice a person, which might explain why people don't chit-chat with me either!

Its very depressing at times to realise that life is not like the movies - not just rarely... it never is!